Nadia Jamil shaved her head after chemotherapy and wishes to be stronger for her kids and end her relationship with loneliness.
She shared that her hair had been falling despite the ice cap. “The centre had practically gone. I was left with the front & a little on the sides. It was petrifying,” said Jamil.
“That night I washed & conditioned it sobbing, w rose smelling shampoo. I knew this was goodbye 2 a part of myself I had hid behind 4 years. My hair, like many of us ,had been my vanity, the face I wanted 2 show the outside world. If it wasn’t looking good I felt nervous, bad about myself. & now it was gone. And I have to admit it was an ugly death. That night I laughed & cried w the woman in the mirror.”
She thought about all the prayers she made before going ahead for the biggest change in her life.
“Honestly that night, I never prayed 4 my hair. Or even my vanity 2be protected. I prayed that I love the woman who emerges from under it. I have never loved her..myself…as I should,” said Jamil.
“I prayed I learn how 2 self parent & become a better adult while retaining the love, spontaneity & fun I have in my heart. I prayed I learn 2 put myself first so I can take care of myself & others w empathy. If I am a mess, I am useless 2 those I love. I prayed 4 strategies 2 end my relationship w loneliness & fear,that stems from child abuse & I prayed 4 my creativity 2 be blessed.”
In another post, she shared a video and thanked her doctors. “A huge thank you to the team at #Addenbrooks#hematology who didn’t just clean my pic line, feed me toffee pudding and give me my chemo, they also knew how to use a razor so helped tidy the patchy mess on my head,” reads the post.
