Sudden deaths are really hard to accept. Only those who have been through this can feel the pain of losing someone in just a blink of an eye. I never thought I would be the one facing this situation after losing my father. It was 9th April 2020,(Friday, the day after Shab-e-Barat) just like every other normal day, we were having our family time at our terrace, baba was as usual flying kite (one of his favorite hobbies) while we were sitting and watching him. I on the other hand was making tea for all of us. After bringing the tea to the table, while coming out in the terrace I saw baba sitting on Sofa and said,”Chakkar arahe hain”, he then slightly leaned backwards while resting his head on the sofa, before doing that I remember the smile he gave us all while leaning back. That was the last time he looked at us jee bhar ke. We all went towards him to see what is wrong. He did not respond. We all started panicking because we had never seen him like this before.
It was hard for us to believe what actually happened to him. We took him to Liaquat National Hospital as it was the only nearest hospital that had no Covid patients. Soon after reaching hospital the doctors said that he had a major heart attack and it was so severe that its hard for him to survive. We couldn’t accept the fact because of how we saw him prior to losing consciousness. There was no hint of any pain, since Baba was a first class cricketer and had been a sportsman all his life, he endured it with a smile on his face. He never had any heart disease in his life, nor any other issues. He was healthy and fit that was the reason it still feels like a bad dream that he is not with us anymore.
Our lives completely changed soon after Baba left. He was the main pillar of not just our family but of our entire khandaan. He used to plan every picnic, every BBQ and what not? But now there is no one. No family gatherings are like the ones we used to have. Each one of us have lost a friend, a father, a brother, a helper. I don’t think we can ever come across a man like my Baba, Im not saying that because he is my father, but I know whoever knew him would agree with me as he made a huge impact in everyone’s life with just his presence.
Im crying my heart out while I write this blog, I miss him every second of everyday, You went too soon Baba! You always wanted to leave this world happily, and I must say you left just the way you wanted. Im sure he was loved by Allah that is why he was called the way every Muslim dreams to be called. But he left us all empty handed, everyday when I enter home, my eyes are always searching for him, every night I cry and pray to see him for once in my dream but it has been 4 months that I still haven’t seen him. The bond we had with our father is something that can’t be replaced he was our best friend, with whom we could talk about literally everything. The only thing that makes me happy is the fact that all of us were with him while he took his last breath. Covid Lockdown may have impacted negatively in everyone’s life but for us it gave us the time to spend time with Baba for the last time.
Here are some of the best memories of Baba:
While I end this blog I can only say that Baba you will always be my No 1 and my only hero. I love you a lot yaar! Kyun chalay gaye ap?
